Well lately, I've just had some much to deal with ---very little of it good. That I couldn't even decide what to put down. But writing or talking out my emotions, helps me vent. So here I go.


I will be getting divorced when Craig returns from Iraq. There are many reasons for this, most of them too personal to list on here for everyone's eyes to read over and judge. But the biggest reason is, we're just too young. Or at least.. I believe so. I was not ready to feel this old, when I'm in fact so young. I mean seriously, what the hell was I thinking?

As a result, I had to stop renting the house I had --bummer-- and move back home. But it turned out to be better than I had hoped. I bought a 18x12 shed and we're insulating it, turning it into my bed room, conveniently next to the pool, with my DVR hooked up. So, it's a smaller version of my independence. In fact, I didn't realize how much I'd missed my parents home until I was returned to it. Being around my horses all the time, is relaxing. Being in the country with the soothing sounds, and no close neighbors... is part of my soul it seems. It's greatly soothed me to be back home. --They'll probably never rid themselves of me now! mwhahaha!

On a much much devastating note. I found out that a friend I was raised with--our mothers were very very close friends before they moved to Connecticut. She was basically my sister, born only 10 months behind me, from birth to age 13. I was absolutely horrified when they left. I have always missed their friendship. But then, I had the random urge to look her up on myspace, so I Googled her of course... and up pops obituaries. She's been gone since Jan 30th... and I just now grieving. I will never get the chance to say goodbye like all the others that loved her and got to be at her funeral. I feel cheated... but I say my prayers for her family and my goodbyes to her at night in solitude. That's all I can give... Farewell Katie Wishnevsky, you were much much loved by everyone you came upon in your life.


R.I.P beautiful young women. Your presence will be missed.